It's late, my thoughts are jumbled, and I'm typing in the dark, but bear with me (I'll revise another time).

I am terrified of mediocrity. Somewhere in my life I realized that I need to become so much more than who I am. I think I was 12 when this happened. I can remember sitting on the trolley on the commute home from school, being frustrated and thinking about how I need to grow. Ever since that... moment, whatever it was, I've been suffering the challenge of making myself a better person. Not just morally but... forming individuality. I want to be someone admirable. I want to develop skills, passions, and interests. I know it doesn't seem like much, but think about it... how many people do you know that just live life going no where? People that have no dedication or love? I know too many. A lot of my family members have fallen into the hold mediocrity... it's like a disease, a sickness, or something. How do you get rid of it?

I've spent sleepless nights in bed trying to spin an interesting story, but the boring truth is that I started blogging May 10, 2008 as an emotional piggy bank; this blog chronicles the moments I want to remember. However, I went MIA in blogging for that month and it was clear that I needed something to drive me to blog... I thought about it and here's what I've come up with: My reason for blogging? Self- improvement.

Reasons why I blog under the "self- improvement" umbrella
1. I freaking SUCK at writing now. I'm so unsatisfied with everything I write.
2. to defeat my self- consciousness.
3. to get my emo-ness/ anger out in writing
4. to remember


and here's an LOLcat so that this post isn't so boring

Good morning everyone!

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