It's late, my thoughts are jumbled, and I'm typing in the dark, but bear with me (I'll revise another time).

I am terrified of mediocrity. Somewhere in my life I realized that I need to become so much more than who I am. I think I was 12 when this happened. I can remember sitting on the trolley on the commute home from school, being frustrated and thinking about how I need to grow. Ever since that... moment, whatever it was, I've been suffering the challenge of making myself a better person. Not just morally but... forming individuality. I want to be someone admirable. I want to develop skills, passions, and interests. I know it doesn't seem like much, but think about it... how many people do you know that just live life going no where? People that have no dedication or love? I know too many. A lot of my family members have fallen into the hold mediocrity... it's like a disease, a sickness, or something. How do you get rid of it?